I just want to be done with thinking about him. I want everything about him to go away. I feel sick all day. Sick to my stomach. I want to cry. Why does it hurt so much after its been so long?
My stomach is twisted into knots. These pulsating knots that have a mind of their own. I try to eat and it just makes me feel worse. I’m surrounded by my amazing family. I just want to enjoy my time with them. I want to hug them and hang out and be present. I’m trying so hard but I end up telling them that I’m tired, and I’m going to take a nap just so I don’t fall apart, cry in front of them.
I want to move on so badly.